Beautiful soul.

Cold blue eyes, solid black hair, Dancing in the wind like he didn’t have a care.

Passive ways, thoughtful mind, Knew what to say like a scripted line.

Playful grin, pearly whites, Heart of gold that knew no heights.

Soulful voice, tanned skin, Beautiful now, beautiful then.

No one can quite understand, Just how God had made this rare man.

I miss you like crazy, Your beautiful soul amazed me. ❤

Just live.

Thinking of taking your life? Listen first. Life isn’t fair. It’s a huge roller coaster. There are good days; then, there are bad days. Today, is just your bad day. You feel alone, deserted, unappreciated. You feel anxious, afraid. Your life has meaning. Your life has a purpose. It’s hard to see things clear when you’re mad, sad, even happy. We don’t see the bigger picture until we take a deep breathe and analyze our situation. Making hasty decisions result in automatic regret. Nevertheless, we do it. Are you running from a problem? Face it. It’s like ripping a bandaid off. Do you want it to hurt a little or a lot? Running from your problems cause your anxiety to heighten. Facing them, cause you to feel better (in the long run) also it’ll help your problem not to seem as strong. Are you in the moment? I don’t really like the phrase, “when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.” I mean have you tasted lemonade? Very tart. Instead, take anything and give it back when life gets rough! They say only the strong survive, but how is that true if you aren’t here? You are stronger than any problem you have faced/are facing, will face. Is there a bully at school? Even work? I have worked with some, I have went to school with some and watching them make others uncomfortable and feel bad about themselves is truly disgusting. Do not let those make you feel less a person! You are you for a reason and if they cannot handle it, let them work it out. I want you too know, I care, we care. As a whole, I feel America cares. People everywhere you look, want you to be here. To enjoy the beautiful scenery around you. Feel every emotion, let it engulf you then move on. Life goes on, but it won’t if you aren’t here. Truly, you never know how important you are to some; and you may never, that’s okay. Keep living if not for yourself, for them. You can do it, I know you can. You’ve come so far. There is someone who cares more than anyone else. I’m not going to shove it down your throat, but he is the reason you’re alive today and he loves you and wants you to be here. God is so loving and merciful. There were times I had thoughts of suicide, there is also a reason I am still here today. I’m not sure yet, I’m still trying to figure out. But God showed me no matter my purpose, I’m still here. Life is still rough, but he still leads and still watches out. If you’re not sure of your calling, please please please, make it right today. Your life, like mine, has a meaning. Let’s grow old, and find out what they are…together. 💖💖

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“Know yourself, Know your worth.”

Being yourself, is better than being someone else.

As good ole Drake says,
“Know yourself, know your worth”

Do we actually know and live by those words?

I’ve wanted to do a blog on this subject for a while because it’s something, I, myself, have had and are suffering with it now.

Sometimes I forget about me, and while most would say that is a great trait to have, some would disagree. I’m on the fence. I’m usually a upbeat kind of person, so I feel it can be mostly a blessing than a curse.

The blessing is, being able to always make people happy. The curse is letting what others say bog you down; and it does.

Keeping yourself up-to-date with yourself, is a necessary factor in happiness. How can I be happy if I don’t know what makes me happy? Life is too short to be sad and depressed; let’s get happy!

It’s taken a while and several different events to prove to myself, I need to be my own cheer section. It’s something that has to start within. Some days are easier than others, but as you find yourself and stuff that make you happy, the better days will out number the bad.

The last step to finding the one true happiness is not just within yourself, but within God. God alone can make you feel better. Not saying my Christian life has been wonderful and glorious because I’ve had some of my own battles, but God has helped me through them all.

If you’re not sure of your calling, please make preparations today!

Thanks for reading.

xoxo

Draw Me Nearer

“…but I long to rise in the arms of faith, and be closer drawn to thee..”

I played a song for one of my piano recitals, that has been stuck in my head today. My one wish is to remain faithful to God as he has been too me. The song is titled, “I am thine, oh Lord.” I love that because, even though we fall, God always draws us back in.
Growing up, as a christian, I realized I was still sinful. At a young age, some may think once you get saved, that’s it. It’s quite the opposite, you haven’t yet begun. It’s a wonderful feeling to be saved. They say the best things in life are ones you feel with your heart. But how about your heart, body, and your soul?!

You may not be able to see God, but you know he’s still there. He sure has been good too me. I wish to always be drawn too him. The closer I am too him, the more I see myself, my ambitions, my goals. My eyes are not set for worldly things, but I can feel my soul on fire for Heavenly places!

If you’re not saved or not sure, please make your calling right today.

“For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish but have everlasting life.”
John 3:16❤

We rise by uplifting.

It hurts to be put down. It hurts to be bullied. We don’t take into consideration that people are all different; we just see the outward appearance. I’ve come to a realization that the things we see, aren’t always the case. Most people we come into contact with are really good at hiding how they feel and how they are.
I live a very simple life with a phrase that is cliche but very effective; treat others the way I want to be treated.

If we looked at each person as a piece of ourselves, our attitudes would be different. We  have souls, feelings. Two eyes that cry when we’re sad. Hearts that break when those we love hurt us.

The thing most lack is empathy. While it sounds a lot like sympathy, empathy is a bit different. Empathetic people can place themselves in the other persons point of view. They can feel what that other person feels. That’s the thing; we’re so blind to our own problems, we forget those out there with real issues.

One thing that is hard for me to learn, even now, my life is too blessed to be stressed over one person or one thing. There are millions of others who have to sleep outside tonight. They have to dig in the garbage to find food to feed themselves. And I’m letting my minor problem stand in the way of having the blessed life God wants me to have?

If you know someone struggling, help them. It’s kind of crazy how a kind word can go a long way; but it can. Living a blessed life means helping those as God has helped us. Let’s uplift those around us, even the one we may never see again.

“Why did I fall in love?”

Lets start out as, what is love?

Its an overly used word that, too me, has lost its meaning. When did love become hook ups and casual sex? Or better yet, why do WE allow that to be the definition? Isn’t it suppose to be a sacred emotion that is described when two souls match?

Why do we confuse “love” for “lust?” People will say just about anything to get what they want. Rather than thinking to the future and how we want to be, we have let ourselves be in the now and what will satisfy us. It’s kind of sad we have lost that self respect.

Love is so much deeper then people realize. It’s not a feeling that can be caught over night, like a cold. It’s a growing respect for the other person. It’s a learning process that not only allows you to get to know that person, but also yourself. It’s something that reminds us daily how God has blessed us.

To have another soul you can bear yours too, sure there will be ups and downs but who can lift you up when others knock you down? If you can’t say your significant other, maybe you aren’t in love? Sometimes, love and infatuation can be tricky. They can feel alike, but there is a huge difference.

In the first stages of a relationship, you go through the honey moon phase. That person can do no wrong, right? To you, their perfect. But what happens when something sets them off? When you see their true colors? If you can go through hard times with them, it’s love. If not, I think you can safely say, you were just excited over having someone. That person wasn’t for you.

Before marriage, I strongly believe everyone should have marriage counseling. Even if you guys are perfectly fine and feel you shouldn’t. It gives a chance to sit down and ask yourself, “Why did I fall in love?” “Is this relationship something that benefits the both of us?”

In my opinion, true love always sees the good. Not saying, you continually see that person as “perfect,” but you love them in all their flaws; and vice versa. You benefit from one another. You help the other to grow. You do whatever is necessary too get that person to reach their full potential. Life is hard, coming home to a cheer section, helps.

In my closing, I’d to ask you one thing. When is the last time you took the time to appreciate that person? When is the last time you showed them rather than telling you love them? Talk is 20% but Showing is 80% of love.

My Revelation

As a young Christian, I get tempted a lot. More so than I’d like to say. Not really about anything in particular, but one thing I am so totally afraid of, is somehow (without knowing) selling my soul.

One day, I was reading online (probably something to do with psychology) and an ad popped up. Of course I pressed on it and began to read what it was about. The article told the celebrities that have sold their souls in exchange for fame. I began to wonder, “how would one go even about doing that?” It sounds funny, but I suppose the devil took my question as a “sparked interest.”

Every since then, the biggest thing he drills me on is selling my soul. I have no interest what-so-ever. Even the thought scares me too death.

A few nights ago I stayed the night with my mamaw. I always sleep on the couch because I can watch TV.  When I first dozed off to sleep, I began to say a bible verse. I really can’t remember what exactly the verse was but by this point I had kind of woken up because I was trying to figure out why I’d be saying that particular verse. I believe it was along the lines of Joshua 1:9
Then I dozed back off.

The second dream, I was laying in my mamaws back room. I began to feel hopeless, powerless, vulnerable, doom, sadness. I was screaming, crying. I started to pray and say “Lord help me” over and over again. I woke up and I couldn’t breathe. I felt like an elephant was sitting on my chest. I felt the same emotions I felt in my dream. I could feel an evil around me. I didn’t know what to do, so I started to pray.

Today is Wednesday, I sat at home after I cleaned the house and started to think about my day. On my days off I like to be lazy and just lay at home. I started to contemplate going to our Wednesday night prayer meetings. I thought, “The Lord won’t hold this against me if I don’t go one night.” Then I started to analyze. The Lord has done huge things in my life already to start out my new year off. Plus he blesses me everyday that I don’t deserve. Why can’t I go to church and learn more about him and get closer to him?

Of course the sinful thoughts then broke out and I ALMOST decided not to go. A few minutes later I was looking at pinterest. I like looking at different ideas for organizing houses and stuff. I came across a picture and clicked it to see what the words said. On a wall for decoration was the bible verse found in Joshua. The first part of the verse reads, “Choose whom ye will serve..”

I knew God had used that to get to me. See, how many times does God bless and see us through things and we totally blow him off? Today, I decided nothing will stop me. Nothing will come between my soul and the savior. I will choose to serve him always. God is good.

My filthy rags

I was asked a question the other day and I have wracked my brain trying to figure out how to answer it. Then it hit me in church tonight. The question was, “why do we not recognize Mary on mothers day?” I hope I answer this as well as it was presented.

After a moments thought, I smiled and replied, “why do we not recognize God on father’s day?” Why do we not recognize God everyday? Tonight’s message in church was from Isiah chapter 64:1-12. As my preacher read, verses 5-6 stood out to me.

5 “Thou meetest him that rejoiceth and worketh righteousness, those that remember thee in thy ways: behold, thou art wroth; for we have sinned: in those is continuance, and we shall be saved.”
6 “But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away.”

I see where the question comes from. We as humans can’t imagine what it’d be like for one of our own to see what she seen while Jesus was being crucified. I’m sure it was like her heart was being ripped out of her body. But God gave her the grace she needed to get through it. Just as he gives us the grace we need to go through trails. I believe the reason we do not immortalize Mary is because she is just another sinner saved by grace. And just like verse 6 says, our righteousness are as filthy rags. The only good thing about Mary was Christ in her. The only good thing about myself is Christ in me.

I’m leaving you with this thought. If we can afford to put ourselves (Mary) on a pedestal, why can’t we praise God who truly deserves it?